Tagged...

Tagged by Serendipity to list 8 things abt myself. This tag is such an excuse to go on an ego trip! Well not really.

1) I am restless. Very restless. I feel like a loser if I do anything for more than an hour. Except lazing around doing nothing. Like when I used to work, I'd constantly think of what a loser I was to be working all day (could also be because I hated IT) Paradoxical but its true. Guess I'm just a bag of lazy bones that can't do anything useful for long.

2) I love reading. I do. But I feel like I'm wasting my life when I read bad fiction. I no longer have the temperament to read stuff like Irving Wallace. I feel a little sad and old about that.

3) I have very little confidence in myself or my abilities. It's an ongoing problem. I can usually do most things I'm supposed to be doing, well but I never think I can. I need someone around to tell me that I can. Now that taht someone's gone.............

4) I thought it was uncool, weak and against feminism to think being with someone is more fulfilling than being alone until I got into a relationship. Its end shows me what emptiness is. Truly. I can now say without gagging that it is possible for all the meaning in your life to depend on someone else. Not smart, but that's how it goes.

5) I'm moody. I can also be incredibly kiddish sometimes. People who don't know me well are very surprised when that happens and look at me strangely. Btw I'm totally hyper when I feel kiddish. Unfortunately, I don't think anyone finds it cute or precious :(

6) I read the newspaper from the last page to the first. I feel there's more suspense that way.

7) I watch a lot of shows on TV.

8) I admire women who have the courage to break barriers even in the smallest ways. Women are the toughest people on the planet. But they can truly be their own enemies sometimes ( this bit I'm learning as I grow older and witness bitchiness that I never did when I was in much more liberal company in school and college)


Since I'm paranoid about keeping myself anonymous (not even my friends know of this blog) and haven't made the rounds of the blog world yet, I tag whoever reads this (yes, you accidental visitor!) and wants to take it up. And thanks Serendipity! I feel part of the blog world now :)

I want to believe……..

In karma. In love. I really dig the concept of karma. As long as the definition is, “what goes around comes around IN THIS LIFE”. I don’t know about rebirth but it seems really unfair if we have to pay for stuff we did in some previous avtar that we can’t do anything about now. It is however, reassuring to know that if someone screws me, they will get screwed eventually. All I ask is for it to happen soon, benefit me (justice served, yeah!) and be of the same degree.

Lately though ( ah! growing up) I’ve lost sight of karma. I’ve been waiting for it to kick in and do its stuff. But nada……. This got me thinking about what I’d done to offend karma. After some deliberation and after calls to potentially offended by me people (turned out they were fine! And getting married! ), I’ve come to the conclusion, karma only applies to people who have an active conscience. It is what you make of it and what your attitude towards life is. Some people don’t have a developed sense of guilt or are unabashed about putting their welfare first (Most people do in the broadest sense). Karma is not going to frighten this breed into doing right. So while karma will screw me if I were to put a toe outa line, it’s not gonna do anything to others who are ok with stepping over people. Where’s the comfort?

Brrrrrrrr Somberrrrrrrr

Ok ok, enough with the somber posts. Today is a rare up day. Have my books and movies around me to keep my thoughts from needlessly wandering to where they will regret going to. Life ought to get real busy in a week and as much as I desperately wanted to enjoy this break, it's turned out to be disastrous. I'm happy the break is ending, though considering the amount of work there is to be done, it scares me: how to get into that frame of mind where i give a damn abt things that need to be done. I better start caring by tomorrow or there's gonna be hell to pay.

Today's agenda: Syriana, Casino Royale, meet up with friend who flies off tomorrow to the very cliched land of the free and home of the brave.